Miss you a lot Dadu… | :(

I seriously don’t know where to start with….
This thought.. makes me go blank… out of words…
What is there , is only an unbearable pain which can’t be expressed…
a crying heart deep inside.. which cannot be seen even with open eyes…
a sense of defeat from destiny.. a sense of loneliness..
I can’t forget the most painful day of my life…when my Grandfather left for his
heavenly abode.. leaving all of us behind…
We have a small family which had all in all six ppl. My grandfather.. who was a very well educated doctor.. MBBS from KGMC Lukcnow.. n PG from London.. member of British Medical Association.. & the oldest ‘Radiologist’ of Faizabad city…
My grandmother.. who is also a doctor.. my dad .. my mom.. & my young brother…
Its a totally different family.. than today's modern families are…
Our family has always been clubbed with affection.. values.. & love towards elders & children…
We always travel together…& are very attached to each other…
My dad is another example of Shravan Kumar.. who himself is an MBA… left his lucrative job of Branch manager.. just to come back to Faizabad & serve his parents…
I wonder.. ‘ll I ever be able to be like him one day… ??
One can achieve great heights in terms of career.. which are well acknowledged in this materialistic world.. but rarely can one achieve this status which my dad has achieved in my eyes…
I myself am a emotional person.. bt weak at expressing them infront of others…
fail to show my feelings to my parents at times..
My only friend when it comes to sharing my sorrows & tears..is my childhood friend which never betrayed me.. my lonliness… I had been an introvert throughout, a shy guy indeed..
Though after getting into engineering.. I faced a tough life which I had never ever imagined in my dreams.. which made me a sort off tough guy & an extrovert…
I had always been pampered throughout my childhood that’s why may be I was a spoilt boy.. for whom his luxuries had become his necessities, in a country where more than 70% of ppl. don’t have enough to feed their tummy twice a day…
It’s always easier to discuss things but its very difficult to bear them…
I remember Sunday 5th april 09, I was at my Masi place.. in Gzb.. when my dad called me up..
Telling me this shocking news of my Dadu’s demise.. I was dumb struck.. but no tears fell out of my eyes.. I did not know.. what sort of strength God gave me to at that moment.. I rushed to station & got a general ticket.. went to a sleeper boogie.. but my luck was so hard.. that I got a B***** TT in that train.. who took advantage of my need.. The next day when I reached Lucknow.. the special checking squad caught me.. & that bloody TT was no where to save me.. Whom I had to bribe more than a reasonable amount.. But somehow.. I managed an escape from that squad after so much of request & plea they left me .. when I gave them a few acquaintances of my dad in railways.
From there on I went to a general boogie.. for the 2nd time in my life.. 1st was with my frnd in diwali when our train got cancelled.
And guess what.. there was no place to sit..as usual & So I decided to sit on the floor for 1st time ever in my life.. I was so dejected.. that words like ego.. shame etc .. were no where to be thought about..
I reached home at around 10:00am.. there was huge gathering of ppl. At my home.. I entered home from the backside.. met dad..
That was the first time ever I saw him crying in my life.. I was like…blank, my heart started beating so fast.. there was adrenaline rush in my veins.. & a flow of tears in my eyes.. I cudn’t refrain my self anymore from crying.. somehow.. I reached my front verandah.. where my dadu laid in white bedsheet.. I was totally broken.. lost.. felt the most helpless that day..
That was infact the most helpless moment of my life …. I saw my grandmother.. who has got that tremendous will power.. to provide strength to our family.. was very calm.. my mom was crying.. my brother with tears in his eyes.. standing at a corner..
After sometime.. it was the time for cremation.. so body had to be taken to ghat for all the proceedings.. that was the last time I kissed my Dadu…
We went there.. and did the final cremation.. came back home thereafter..
The next day we went to pravah the astiyas.. in river Saryu (where Lord Rama took route to his Vaikunt dham after his stay in Ayodhya) & thereafter after the Shanti Hawan at our home the next day I left to college cause of my sessional tests scheduled in my college.. to my surprise I scored well in all without much study..
Even today when I come back home.. my heart is not able to believe the truth.. whenever I came home he was the first person to kiss me.. I touched his feet the first…
That’s all for now.. I even see my dadu in my dreams at times.. I know he’ll always be alive in our hearts.. I miss him a lot.. I know his blessings are with me… & one day as I have promised him I’ll be famous like him.. I’ll prove my self one fine day…
from a nobody today.. I’ll be somebody one day…!! :)

Proud To Be Indian | Some Facts ; Jai Hind..

India, officially the Republic of India (Hindi: भारत गणराज्य Bhārat Gaṇarājya; see also other Indian languages), is a country in South Asia. It is the seventh-largest country by geographical area, the second-most populous country, and the most populous democracy in the world. Bounded by the Indian Ocean on the south, the Arabian Sea on the west, and the Bay of Bengal on the east, India has a coastline of 7,517 kilometres (4,700 mi).It is bordered by Pakistan to the west; People's Republic of China (PRC), Nepal, and Bhutan to the north; and Bangladesh and Myanmar to the east. India is in the vicinity of Sri Lanka, the Maldives, and Indonesia in the Indian Ocean.

Home to the Indus Valley Civilisation and a region of historic trade routes and vast empires, the Indian subcontinent was identified with its commercial and cultural wealth for much of its long history.Four major religions, Hinduism, Buddhism, Jainism and Sikhism originated there, while Zoroastrianism, Judaism, Christianity and Islam arrived in the first millennium CE and shaped the region's diverse culture. Gradually annexed by the British East India Company from the early eighteenth century and colonised by the United Kingdom from the mid-nineteenth century, India became an independent nation in 1947 after a struggle for independence that was marked by widespread nonviolent resistance.

India is a republic consisting of 28 states and seven union territories with a parliamentary system of democracy. It has the world's twelfth largest economy at market exchange rates and the fourth largest in purchasing power. Economic reforms since 1991 have transformed it into one of the fastest growing economies; however, it still suffers from high levels of poverty, illiteracy, disease, and malnutrition. A pluralistic, multilingual, and multiethnic society, India is also home to a diversity of wildlife in a variety of protected habitats.

Some Facts:-

There are 3.22 Million Indians in America.
38% of Doctors in America are Indians.
12% of Scientists in America are Indians.
36% of NASA employees are Indians.
34% of MICROSOFT employees are Indians.
28% of IBM employees are Indians.
17% of INTEL employees are Indians
13% of XEROX employees are Indians
All the above is just the TIP of the iceberg, the list could be endless. Be an ever shining and Inspiring country setting a bright path for rest of the world to follow.
PROUD to be an INDIAN.

Forgot I and YOU now remember "WE"
yeah WE R | INDIANS |

Maruti Suzuki Esteem 'Revisited' | Review

I know I am reviewing a car which has been discontinued by Maruti Suzuki, but I am doing it because of my love & passion for cars right from my childhood & may be because I am one of the proud owners of Esteem Vxi.

In July 2004 the Esteem (Deacde Old Power Horse of Maruti Suzuki) was Re-Launched with caption ‘Fall in Love Again”.It received a second facelift in which the redesigning exercise introduced clear lens headlamps incorporating orange indicator bulbs within the single assembly, a new prominent Mercedes-Benz shaped compact chrome-bordered radiator grille, rounded fog lamp inserts on the bumpers, an all-new bumper, jewel effect redesigned tail lamps (only the brake lights and the indicators) and new boot lid with a spoiler with integrated stop light.The rear-end now looks much like the 1997 Honda City.

The clear reversing lights however are incorporated in a parallel and slanting manner in relation to the tail lamps. However,I feel the Mercedes shaped grille with stylish Suzuki logo looks good..
The car:

It is essentially a proper subcompact four-door front wheel driven hatchback with a well integrated boot that makes it a small sedan, whose length is 4075mm,breadth 1575mm and height 1395mm.

This car is a light lower midsize budget luxury car. The kerb weight is 875Kg. The wheelbase is 2365mm while the ground clearance is 160mm.

In It’s last times there were 5 variants the LX(base model), LXI(LX+power steering),VXI(Power windows, Kenwood Music Player, Power Staring, Rear Spoiler & every other feature found in top luxury cars).

Engine and performance:

The engine is very smooth.The car is powered aluminum E MPFI (Electronic Multi Point Fuel Injection) petrol engine which drives the front wheels. The VXI has a 1298cc unit with 4 valves per cylinder whose output is 85bhp and 10.6 kgm (at 6000rpm).

Performance is very good. The VXI takes around 5 seconds to hit the 60kph mark from standstill while the same with the 100kph mark comes up in 12 seconds.Top speed is a decent 165kph.Fuel efficiency is okay:10kpl in the city and 16kpl in the highway without AC.. with AC average & pickup decreases slightly.

In all till the time it was present in the market it was Maruti Suzuki’s Ace in the Mid-Size Luxury Sedans Segment.
It proved tough competition for Tata’s Indigo, Ford Ikon, Ford Fiesta, Hyundai Accent etc. making them stand far below in the market share list due to all the above featured stuff & Maruti’s Brand name which counts for value for money & service facility at most places.
Though it is discontinued by Maruti Suzuki & has been replaced by Swift Dezire , it still has that elegance & features which can put the latest mid-sized segment cars in the market at shame even today!!

Me & My Dreams.. :)

Here I present to you my first ever composition that came in Summer of 2008
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I wish I could breakthrough the pain…
When time tests me again & again…

I wish I have plenty of money to pay…
So that I can buy all the luxuries in a simple way..

I wish I can make my destiny to get me some gud luck..
So that i can reach the zenith which keeps my critics dumb struck…

I want Life’s good feel…
And moments of happiness which no one can steal…

I don’t know why am I so ambitious..
But I do know God has given me this quality just to make me one day so famous…

My parents are my world that’s my belief..
Which in itself gives me a wholesome of relief..

I am thankful to God for what ever I have..
But don’t know why I often crib over things which I don’t have…

Sometimes my life seems to be a big Mystery..
Which takes me to my childhood that’s my History..

Am a Guy who wants to touch the sky…
& still be a person like I am very shy..

I wish I can make my parents proud of me one day..
So that they can feel delighted and have a lot to say..

I wish I could see my days in future..
And posses the power to make them filled with a sense of pleasure..

I know I have to walk many more miles…
And make such efforts which may not go futile..

I know I have it in me..
Just some times I forget & start blaming my destiny..

I know I have to grow up a bit..
I have to make my dreams turn into reality & I promise it..

I promise I will face the world & obstacles with full guts..
Without any Ifs & Buts as done by Nuts..


I do have a longing for a Girl in my Life..
Who can b my dream princess n my superb wife..

But to achieve all this I have not to cry..
Instead just struggle it out try nd try..

I have to break the mountain called difficulty..
With the power of confidence & self belief & without any doubtful probability..

My Dreams are not like last night dream which break up..
When everyday I wake up…

I want to make life of ppl near me colorful…
So that they value my presence as worthful….

I want to win heart of Girls by my decency..
So that my thoughts bring smile to their face with increasing frequency..

I want to sing sing & sing…
As if am the only uncrowned music King…

I want to dance & dance..
So that every one passing by stop to have a glance..

I want to shine as bright as Sun..
Because it’s the brightest & the only one…

I want to be a popular personality among my friends..
So whateva I do sets for them some new trends…

I wish my thought leaves a smile on my friends face to Linger…
And when they need me ..i can wipe out their tears with my only finger..

I know I have a habit to dream...
But I do know that they are not only limited to just the ppl who r counted amongst the cream…

I want to shed out all my frustration..
And move towards my aim of life without any hesitation…

I would end up & say a promise is a promise..
And hence nothing would deter me to make my promises come true one day..
So I can see me & my family forever happy & gay..

I hope that taking out your precious time for my effort hadn’t made you bore..
Its just the start of this Lion’s Roar…

Coz My Dil Maange Moreeeeeeee… 

Don't I Have A Right To Fall In Love..??

This is a poem that was composed by me last summer.. when my school time crush got crushed without me even proposing her..
Anyways thats a long story now i realised that we don't have future together..
But anyhow.. along with tears.. & sad emotions came few lines from my crying heart..

Why does it happen… i allow some1 to make me cry…
Without the truth known 2 d person..to get whom so much i try…

She is in my dreams day & night…
Still I can’t find ny hope or ray of light…

Thot of loosing her gives me sense of xtreme fright…
For whom am ready to indulge into destiny’s ny challenging fight...

The Girl who’s more beautiful then any flower…
For whom I can shed of all my possessions like a rainy shower…

To Love her I donno had I made ny mistake…?.
Coz for that Girl I can put my Life at stake…!!

How can she break my heart…
Without even letting me make a simple start…


It’s a unbearable pain…
Which I do know wont give me any gain…

God is this my fault..??
Or keeping expectations from some..n having emotions is my shortcoming by default..

I don’t know what my destiny xpects me to be..
It breaks me shakes me everytime some Love sentiments comes to me…

I want to her realize…
My love for her is far beyond comparison to nything in size…

I can’t forget the day I was knocked out by her smile..
That moment when i made my mind to walk hand in hand with her for miles..


I have neva eva seen a gal so sensible as she is…
That’s the one reason I don’t wanna get my hope to dismiss…

I know many more guys may be better than me r mad for that girl…
But I believe may be not now let the time come when I’ll overcome my inferiority whirl & ‘ll prove myself to be the best guy for that girl…



I believe that she is better than me in every respect at the moment…
May be I don’t deserve her at this point of time.. But i’ll try n find out one day all my endowments…

Because I believe I hav it in me.. to stand tall ..
& the ingredients needed to leave her one day enthralled…

Her Sparkling eyes leave me dumb struck…
I wish I could turn her to be my Luck…

Her single thought for me Brightens up my day…
& appreciating her keeps me at loss of words nd I hav nothing to say..

I have some principles that’s why at the moment its not easy for me to say..
But even after every odds I wish to see her wid me so 1 day so happy & gay..

I know there is no guarantee of me winning of her Love
But I promise myself I’ll try & try….
& hold on my tears ..so that destiny don’t notice me cry…

May be one day I’ll get a bit of God’s attention…
& she ‘ll understand me better than Nyone…


Lastly I wud say another few lines in my mother tongue…
& let the destiny know I don’t wanna leave ny stone unturned…

“Main Yaad aaunga.. jitna bhi mujhko Rulaoge…
Main Yaad aaunga jitna bhi door mujhse jaaoge…” …

“Main Yaad aaun to….
Ashk kaise fir ye chupaoge…” 

Just the hope driving me now is..
My time will also come one day..
& day She’ll b mine leaving me spellbound fr nything to say..

What I can do 2day is have patience.. nd rememba God..
& pray fr arrival of dat day..
So that it comes soon my way..my way & only my way.. 


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Although she isn't gng to come my way.. i hope sumone else is made for me :)
Hope she comes & knock at my heart someday.. :)